zzeek, when I was 2 years older than what you are now (and that was almost 6 years ago), I experienced the worst trauma in my life. Within about 2 months God communicated to me three times through a series of illogical occurrences: the first two simply provided answers to my questions, and the last (a series of several things, each extremely unlikely on its own, happening within about 30 minutes) telling me that God knows about me and knows me, and that I am being looked after … and, indeed, that was the case. If I now look back at that time, there is no way that I can (i) doubt the existence of God and (ii) doubt that He knows me and looks after me. If you read the parable about the prodigal son in Luke 15 you will see that God gives each of us the opportunity to make a choice … either for God or not. I pray that you will be guided to make the right choice.
zzeek, when I was 2 years older than what you are now (and that was almost 6 years ago), I experienced the worst trauma in my life. Within about 2 months God communicated to me three times through a series of illogical occurrences: the first two simply provided answers to my questions, and the last (a series of several things, each extremely unlikely on its own, happening within about 30 minutes) telling me that God knows about me and knows me, and that I am being looked after … and, indeed, that was the case. If I now look back at that time, there is no way that I can (i) doubt the existence of God and (ii) doubt that He knows me and looks after me. If you read the parable about the prodigal son in Luke 15 you will see that God gives each of us the opportunity to make a choice … either for God or not. I pray that you will be guided to make the right choice.