OT – I come asking for prayers (or whatever) for healing. i mentioned 3 weeks ago that my eye dr diagnosed macular degeneration in both eyes. well, at my follow up yesterday he said my left eye was worse, the macula had some swelling, so he’s sending me to a retina specialist. so naturally I spiraled down even further into the black hopeless hole of depression I’ve been living in the last several weeks. I’ve been feeling……..well………i’ve been feeling doomed lately. i’m in a “i’m so tired of my life, I need to change, but why try, I’m just going to fail again” phase. I’m not suicidal, (I’m a coward & I can’t hurt the few people who really do love me) but I do constantly wish Jesus would just come get me and take me home with him. I saw my primary dr yesterday too and she is changing my depression meds,so i hope they start to work quickly. I’m tired of my arthritic knees, the pain in my back, my foggy brain, and now my eyesight may be in jeopardy. sorry this is so long. thanks for listening. this comic and community are the only things that make me smile and laugh every day. we are so blessed to have each other to lean on in times of crisis. try to stay cool this weekend. i love ya all!
February 26, 2016